Another year....

Another year has flown by and I still can't believe it. It feels like 2 weeks ago I was celebrating the beginning of 2006 with two guys I consider my brothers. So many things have happened that I don't know if I've digested all of it. And like every year, I've learned new things and reinforced some old beliefs.

I've come to realize that the absolute best things in life are free. Friendship, love. I'm so happy that I can honestly say that I do know who my friends are. I've learned that the path less traveled is the path I always tend to follow, and it's worked wonders. I've learned that there are people who are irreplaceable, and that even though, by some weird act of fate, they are no longer a part of your life, they're still a part of you and will always be with you, and that no matter how hard you try, nobody will ever be able to replace them. I've learned to love the surprises that life throws at you. That if you open yourself up to new things, events, situations, opportunities, that sometimes just saying yes, is one of the best things you can ever do for yourself. I've learned that grudges are useless, and that people, no matter how well you think you know them, will always, in some way or the other, surprise you. Sometimes in a good way, sometimes in a bad way, but most of the time in an unexpected way.

I have truly come to learn that just because, that one person that made you smile for sooo long, also makes you cry out of frustration, and anger, and just.. blah!.. it never means that you let those tears cloud the good memories. My friend is irreplaceable. One of the best people I've ever met. Sincere, honest. Gave me hope, when it was all I really wanted without even knowing it. I learned that I need to take charge of my life, and that when I want something to happen, I just have to make it happen. I've grown to see who I am, and how I am.. and "I luv it". LOL. I love it. I love it. Sure, the tears hurt, but at the end of the day, my memories are priceless. I found exactly what I had been looking for, and I didn't even know. It's everything, but at the same time can't become something. And as weird as this may sound... I don't mind it.

I've never felt so happy and content, and just WOW with myself before. I have friends who I love with all my heart. Some are here with me, and some are back home... And it's just great to know that I can call anyone of them up, or talk to them online and the conversations will flow as if I had never come to DR.

Surprises.
I've had a lot of those this years. Some good. Some bad. And some that just blew me away. I think I really am on my way to learn how to put things behind me and leave them there. I can't say enough about how much I love, and appreciate my friends who have given me soo much support that it's unbelieveable.

Some things just come back and hit you in the face, or in the heart.... whichever you prefer. And you're like "OH MY GOD! WHAT THE HELL?!". And I got that surprise, and it blew me away... and I didn't know how to respond to it. What to think about it. And it's just, weird. HAHA. It's like... WOW. Looking back... who whould have thought. Certainly not me.

And then.... Life. In general. My life is good. My life is great. And I hope for it to stay that way. I've been blessed on so many different levels that sometimes it's just hard to believe. But I've also learned that life doesn't give you second chances, and if it does, it's rare.

I can't say I'm the best of persons, but I'm not the worst. I don't put myself ahead of everyone, but I always come first. It's my golden rule. I have to be able to help myself in order to help those around me.

I've learned that even though things don't go your way, they sometimes have the best outcome. I can't change the things that happen, but what I can do is decide how I will let them affect me. I can either close myself off to everyone and go back to square one, or be willing to put myself on the line for the things I want. You never know until you try, and all I'm trying to do is end up with the least amount of regrets possible. I'm still the person that just waits, but that doesn't mean that while I'm waiting I'm letting my life pass me by. It just means that I've learned to wait in a different way. People don't always change, but you change with them. I don't claim to be something I'm not. I'm stubborn as hell, difficult as only God knows, but I think that people have learned that if they have patience, and just stick around, it's worth it.

I was told once that there are people exactly like me out there. And at the time I was told that it was completely true, because I was trying to fit into this mold so I could "stand out" but in reality all I was doing was going unnoticed. Good thing is, that's not true anymore. I'm not trying to fit a mold, I'm trying to get away from it because I will never let myself become a stereotype, or be generalized, or be analyzed by people who have no idea the type of person I am, or could be. And it's their loss. I'm happy to say that, even thoughI may not be the best thing out there, but I am one of the good things. I don't look for other people's validation of me. I have nothing to prove to anyone, because if you know me, and if you know the person I am, then there's no need for me to show you who I am and what I am capable of doing. The only person that I need to prove myself to is me, and that doesn't change. I am what I am, and that's how I like it.

And looking back at things from before, It's hit that... wow.... people are incredible. LOL.

This has been a fantastic year. I've laughed, I've cried, I've fought, I've come to realizations, I've taken chances, and at the end of the day, I wouldn't change a thing. I do believe everything happens for a reason, and as long as the changes help me become a better me, let them come.

Why Be Average?

LOL.

Being unconventional rocks!